RELENTLESSNESS

tough cookie tough cookie tough cookie.
mood swung , and its time to open up--just like those fortune cookies select chinese places give (pandas!) rofl
life has currently got me settled in. i stay home, more than i go out now. a total turn around from before, but im learning to balance out. Amazing im blessed with understanding people who let me do as i please(: thanks. i think i've earned the label of "MIA" but to be honest as much as i miss knowing about everyones personal business, im quiet frankly okay with not knowing as well. Knowing so much i think corrupts to many peoples lives because they twist up the truth and make it unbearable to live with. Currently reading, New Moon. The 2nd book of the infamous Twilight series. pretty darn good in my opinion, but to have a relationship like that is absolutely insane. Since im on that topic, man is everyone falling for somewhat or what?! 2009 has brough good & bad in the whole "LOVE" scene. never been officially filled in about many but from what i observe man everyone got the love bug whether it be for better or for worse. All i can say to everyone though is to keep your heart happy and remember what you deserve. Lets go find me a good guy! hah SIKE[; i got the best boyfriend of all JESUS. along with the other boys that frequent my life daily. My heart, I can really say, is truely occupied for the better. My love has only gained strength despite my relectance to let go of all that i cling to. Oh, and im satisfied with my partner for prom--the fugitive. It was a easy choice and i look foward to all the trouble thats gonna happen in the months ahead. GAME FACE on! anyways- School is the usual. gonna stick it out with Calculus and give it a beat down! hah i wish >-<" i really do hope i get into COP, then onto UH[= or the other path will be KCC i know it. whatever happens happens, i can deal with it.




A few things that phase me-

+you poor thing, i wish i could help you in your situation--i see your effort & i pray for you that it works out for the best so you get better soon

+disconnection,i loathe it. i keep having this dream where im gonna run to you at lifenight and everything is gonna get better.

+STRANGER. i walk past you and cant even LOOK at you. i wonder if you even see it as well. this is far from what i ever thought we would be, far from what we planned, and the starting point day is up soon again. as long as your happy right?

Its all about

FAITH.

once you have that then its easier to love. enough love then comes trust. with trust comes honesty. with honesty come strength. and with strength comes dedication.

its never been a easy journey to allow others actually into your life. to see the real person you are instead of what society expects. dont follow, be a leader. take the path thats less taken and create a trail of your own. pretty much easier said than done but its true. true friends will always remain with you because of one thing that makes them stand out amongst the rest of the people that populate this earth- there willing to see past your imperfections or flaws and see the good in you unconditionally no matter how much time and the circumstances. i guess this is all flooding out of me because of whats been happening and everything i've felt lately. bottom line that came across to me though is that--you dont have to know everything and anything about the people you love, just enough to keep you happy. with that said, my friends make me happy even though we all live our different lives. distance does make the heart grow fonder. do not be afraid. Because when you chose to see the good in people eventaully they will show you there good side.

EFFORT. for the ones that are worth it.

2009 start to SHINE.

the new year, beckons the reality to shape yourself up!


it would be proper to reflect on 2008.

reigned in 2008 in ewa with familia. Allies & RJP's 17th.junior prom with the infamous, Ko. Gangsterbabes 17th. Celery's 17th. Bigtallmeanie's return to the rock. CC's 17th.lowest selfesteem timeperiod of my life so far. effort not good enough. permitted driver. illegal driving scandals. kick ass summer! Ryans crazy house night.closer bonding. established "stealer" reputation. got blessed with a new best friend, the Legend. went back to church after 6 years, with landon being the first one that really welcomed me there. Lifenights.Unneccessary drama happens. Senior year begins. Council crazy.Switch to Physics for my friends-- met Reynon. became a "kag" --kick ass girl. established 2nd familia members. planned jay2dar's SUPRISE 17 party--literally. Supernerds Grad party. Jobanger's 17th.my girlfriend's catiollion dubbed with incredible jus10 for my partner. Mama's & KO's 17th.JZA's 17th.greatest 17th birthday ever even though i was the reason the night ended earlier then intended. Fall break BLLLLLAZIN-- met the Maui Lovelies.Daddy's 3rd year RIP. Lambretch leaves, photography's downfall. Hsm3 my goooooooosh. good heart moments. lessoned learned that all boys arent assholes, theres a lot of good ones still left. First retreat-SYTYCL Camp Waianae. First letdown from the fellahs. Gave my heart away, left the pain behind FOR GOOD. Big Richie's 17th.Shaun's & Laytonboy's 17th.home thanksgiving, heartfelt. december procrastination. a worthy Christmas-- Supernerd visits. Lating joyful feeling.Last picture with the person who means the most to me, Nellie Caroline Pasion-Callueng. First before 2009 greet: Sky the Fugitive Last txt of 08: Craig Sweeny last call of 08: Supernerd & Ronald drunken. accomplished my goal : to stay single & finally be content with who i am.



ALLLOOOOOOHA 2009.


first person to see in 09: mommy dearest. first text: FORGOT x] first call: Supernerd. First bearhug: Mr. v s 2 First mass sermon of 2009 that i attended "Search for beyond what you can see & maintain that new vision"


the new year is gonna be great. i can feel it within myself that its gonna be a crazy year. I love the feeling that my heart's giving me. no being scared, afraid, and in the dust.& i will keep my promises that i made in 08--

"Live the Life you Love, Love the Life you Live."